Hello There

I'm alive.

I'm sorry that it's been such a long time since I last posted.

Now that it's already over a week into December, I'm pretty sure a lot of you have also figured out that this would be my second year not doing the 25 Days of Christmas Giveaway.

As some of you may have guessed, this is not a year where I am financially able to do the giveaway, but I will work hard and pray to bring it back by next year!

I've honestly really missed blogging and having conversations with you all.

I know it's been a pretty bad time to disappear off the internet, when a lot of people rely on blogs and YouTube videos to feel less alone during this pandemic.

To be honest, me too.

I've been feeling so alone, and it's been really hard to be focused on anything.

Part of it is probably the meds.

Another part of it, is a constant anxiety that is not going away.

Finances has a huge part of it, with my medical bills racking up and my pay dwindling down.

Another part of it is just the isolation slowly creeping in, and because of my health issues, I don't want to risk it.

We were designed for fellowship - with God and with each other, but this quarantine has cut off that fellowship.

I am able to fellowship through community groups and also daily devotionals, but it's a little different from actually being able to interact with others. It's been pretty stressful, and it's caused me to go even deeper into isolation.

I was also advised, legally, to keep a lot of things hidden from public, and not seek advice on public platform regarding the issues I've been facing.

Because of that, I've also just been extra private, and deep-diving into hermit-mode.

I know that Christmas should be a joyous occasion, and I'm not really spreading in joy through this post.

The Christmas spirit isn't supposed to be about "I" or "me", but about Christ, adn who He is.

But quite frankly, as I've been withdrawing, it has been a lot easier to be egocentric about it all.

I've been doing my best.

I've been struggling.

I've been working hard.

I've been hurting,

I've been lonely.

I've been anxious.

I've been hermit-ing.

It's been a little hard to remember: God is the best.

God is there through the struggles.

God works hard.

God is with us.

God tells us to give Him our anxieties.

God gave us fellowship.

Because these are the truths that bring us back time and time again. God is faithful, always.

I hope that you've all been doing well, and have been a bit more productive than I have been, haha.

I think I do still need a bit more time to heal and recuperate (plus, it is currently Finals week), but I wanted to check in with you all. Please leave a message or send me an e-mail, if you need someone to chat and pray with~