Late Night Thoughts

Tonight is one of those nights where I feel tired - slightly overworked, not quite burnt out, but agitated with myself for not being as productive as I'd like to be. I finally finished what I set out to do today, and yet I feel restless, so I thought I would chat with you all.

Hello, how have you all been? I feel like even with my last post, I haven't had the time to really sit down and update you all, and have a heart to heart chat. It almost feels weird after such a long break to reach out again - a part of me feels like I've abandoned you all because my life got busy, and I'm starting to realize that's a bit of a pattern. I love blogging and writing, and spending time with you all, and it makes my day when I receive an email or a message from one of my readers. However, when life gets busy, this blog is usually the first thing I sacrifice to make more time for my busy seasons. That has been something I've struggled with in the past few years, and I really hope that 2023 is the year that I stop doing that. I think it will definitely take a while for me to get back into the groove of regularly blogging, but I want to declutter my life and focus on the things that bring joy - labor is a gift that God has given us, and we aren't called to work tirelessly to sustain ourselves in meaningless, tedious jobs that we do not feel passionate about.

As I mentioned in my last post, I am still working out the details of this year's 25 Days of Christmas, and in the mean time, I am also re-drafting and re-branding this blog. I loved doing Wednesday in the Word, but the structure made it discouraging when I missed Wednesdays, which would lead me to continue in a trend of not posting. I do want to continue posting devotionals, so I'll probably be starting a new series for that purpose.

I also do want to take you all on my new journey in business ownership, and all the fun events that have been coming up, starting with today's fundraiser event for Child Evangelism Fellowship. This is the first large scale fundraiser that I've ever done, and wow, I am pooped. It is so encouraging to see how many people truly believe in this cause and donate their time, efforts, money, and work into this event - myself included. If you are available in the Southern California area, it would be a joy to see you there to support a cause that cares for the children and eternity. Something that really touches me about children's ministries is the fact that outreaching to children is also a way to reach families, and it gives me hope that though I'm not a kid anymore, I am still a child - and perhaps one day, the Gospel can reach the hearts of my family members. It is also just a big encouragement to see children come to faith - there is something so special about what it means to have child-like faith. While I personally believe that most children may not fully understand the weight of the Gospel, I do believe that planting the seeds of faith in their hearts to grow and mature when they are ready is important.

For obvious reasons, I cannot invite you all to weddings I am hired to help design, plan, and/or coordinate, but I can invite you to this fundraiser! :) So I would love to see you there!

I guess a juicier update that doesn't involve just work and ministry would be that I met someone. I think for the first time in a long time, I met someone who challenges me and reminds me of aspects in my faith that I am lacking - such as Sabbath. It has been a whirlwind of blessed struggles and wrestling with myself and my habits, and working through my own response to work and finding rest. He has been gracious to me in my tendencies to overwhelm myself with work, and patient with scheduling time with me, and teaching me to build boundaries for myself. A lot of it is also just learning again how to not be single - there is so much time that can be dedicated to work and ministry as a single person, but dating in itself is a whole 'nother ball game. God is good to provide :)

I really should get some sleep now before I have to wake up, so I will leave it at this. Good night, dear friends!