Wednesday in the Word
It's been a few weeks since I've posted a Wednesday in the Word. It has been a such a crazy season, and if you caught a glimpse of my "Home" post before I took it down, you kind of know what has been happening. Long story short, it's just been a time of grief and loss, and the straw that broke the camel's back jumped aboard. I'm still not completely okay, but God has been comforting me and reminding me of His promises. The people He's placed in my life are also super awesome, and I am so thankful for them <3 The sun has set, but I've always loved sunrises more. Instead of pursuing sunsets because they're easier to see, I should really start chasing after what I love.
A small excerpt from my "Home" post:
"For the first time in almost a year, I was able to go to church without anything else pulling me. I didn't have to watch sermons online because I am on the job, rush off right after service for work, take someone else to/from church, or anything like that. I was able to just go to church and be alone with God. Driving down to Riverside was hard. The songs that were playing on the radio kept reminding me of what has been happening... and it all pointed me to go back to God. I was frustrated. I know already that I have to go to God. I know this, but it's hard. How do I come before God and thank Him for taking the lives of those around me? How do I come before God and thank Him for appointing Trump, thus having some Americans think it's okay to tell me that I'm going to be deported? How do I come before God and thank Him for taking away this relationship with someone who finally for once... made me feel like I have a home?"
I was struggling a lot in coming before God in faith and trust that He knows far more and far better than I do. I'm still struggling. It's been really hard, trying to accept everything that has been going on. I mentioned this as well in my "Home" post, but I thought it deserves a reprise, as I have been praying over this verse since.
"The following night, the Lord stood by him and said, 'Take courage, for as you have testified to the facts about me in Jerusalem, so you must testify also in Rome.' " - Acts 23:11
It just reminded me of how selfish I have become in trying to follow my own agenda, and I had forgotten that I should be living by His, instead. I really need to take a new look at my motivations and my intentions, and fight on the good fight. I don't quit easily nor willingly, so why should I start now?
How has God been inspiring you in your life these days? I'd love to know~ :)
Hope you have a great day!