Decisions.
Yes.
No.
Yes.
No.
Falling petals, my fate in your hands.
Yes or no?
To be, or not to be? Too many questions, what-ifs, maybes, could-bes, and should-bes.
Yes.
No.
Yes.
No.
When I cannot choose between heart and mind... What shall it be today?
Anything I do or say...
Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
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Just a short little thing regarding decisions. I'm going through feelings of being uncertain about what I should do about a certain situation that I cannot disclose. I know that sounds really ridiculous, but as much as I love being open with you, I also need to have some personal space for privacy, as this is still a public platform :)
I don't think I've ever really had flowers to rip petals out of, but I have done the coin-flip and ask an X amount of friends for their input. I think usually, I already have my decision, but I can't bring myself to make the final decision and push it along. Oh, the joys of the unknown~ To be completely honest, I don't have any trick or tip on how to overcome the fear of the unknown: I don't. I can tell myself "It's okay, God is with me" all I want, but I can't always get my heart to acknowledge it. It'll just keep thumping faster and faster, letting fear and doubt course through my veins as time ticks away, forcing me to finally step into my Nikes and just do it.
This is something that I definitely need to become more trusting in the Lord for -- there is a reason why my heart is leaning towards one decision. If I believe that God has instilled within me His Holy Spirit, then I have to trust that He is guiding me towards whatever decision it is I am making, and that He will be with me. That should be enough reason for me to be unafraid and fearless of the world around me. But alas, my faith is never enough, and instead of laying down my burdens and anxieties, I find myself holding onto them so tightly, fearing that letting go will create an even bigger mess (which really makes no sense). In the end, I'm just a silly little daughter who forgets that God is my Father, and I can go to Him for anything and everything. I need to remember that He's the fix-all Dad who knows what's best. :) #daddyslittlegirl
