Happy FriYAY!

Happy Friday everyone,

How have you been? I know, it's a surprise - I'm posting within a month? I know I mentioned it makes me so sad that I cannot prioritize this blog more, it has been such a large part of my online journey/presence, which has definitely waned over the years of inconsistent posting.

As we spiral into the autumnal months, I find myself feeling re-inspired by the warm tones and cozy vibes that often come into play this time of year. Everything is about layers, whether it's clothing, stationery, or interior design. I wish I had the time to indulge my creative mind with different projects, but I find myself drained from my regular day - between work, gym, and church, I feel like I am so drained. I enjoy my work, I really do - but not as much as I enjoy getting in a nice workout and serving… yet it takes up most of my time.

Am I being called out of my role at work? I don’t know. I suppose I’ve always felt this way about working in corporate America - I hunger for inspiration, creative autonomy, and freedom from corporate KPIs. I love whenever I work on an event and I’m given the freedom to create and design based on a theme or color palette, and collaborate with my clients on ways to personalize it to their purpose. I love letting my work speak for itself in marketing to new potential clients. I even love the hard times of having to brainstorm rebranding and ways to improve numbers for myself and my family's livelihood, not for anyone else.

Of course, there’s the corporate perks of corporate perks (duh), health insurance, year-end bonuses, 401k, stable paychecks, convenient tax filing, and more. But is it worth it? I know that my husband, my very logical, numbers-driven, and sensible husband would say “YES”. For me? I do believe it was so helpful for me to have a stable job with a steady paycheck during his time of unemployment, and it is even nice right now as we work to save for our wedding next summer. But in the long term, I’m just not sure if I’m cut out for corporate America. Working hard has never been my issue - I am most likely a workaholic - being boxed in is.

Have you ever felt trapped? I feel like I know this feeling so well, and it’s always been when I was at the whims of corporate. I've always felt more called to ministry and non-profit work, but I know that might not be the answer, either. I just know that wherever I go next, I have a very clear sense of my calling: creating space. And we'll see where that takes me :) In the meantime, I know I must remain a good steward of the job that I am at. Even though it honestly sometimes kills me a little on the inside, no matter how much I enjoy the work. I know that all of these things and work experiences are God's way of shaping me and preparing me for where I am to be next, but my heart is sometimes so impatient for change.

Until next time!