Happy very belated Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year, Valentine's Day, and everything in between, everyone!
I was able to announce the winner to my 25 Days of Christmas Giveaway on IG, but as I was away on vacation, I was not able to update here, and then I fell off the face of the earth... as usual. I am not proud of always being in-and-out of this space. I made it a New Year's Resolution to be more consistent, but maybe that is the secret - NYR always gets broken, so I have to not resolve to be more consistent, and somehow I will be.
For the past few months, I have been working hard at work with multiple events finding themselves my way (YAY!) and also figuring out a balance of part-time work, and personal life. To be honest, I haven't been drained the way I used to be when I would rant here. Instead, my partner has been slowly easing me into a life of understanding my worth, my time, and finding rest. I think that has been a huge resounding lesson I've been learning year after year, and yet I haven't quite nailed it -- for the record, I still have not, though it is good having accountability with someone who finds the way I pile on work and responsibility absolutely appalling.
I'm slowly learning to shed some of the responsibilities that I have imposed upon myself, and learn to let God do His thing - in the lives of friends, in ministry, and in my own life. While I didn't idolize work as a way to find my worth, and it is most definitely not a bad thing to take ownership of my relationships, ministries I'm a part of, and myself, if I am to be honest, I think somehow it was mistranslated into my life as "do, or all will fail". That is absolutely not true, because God's Will will always make a way. As much as I despise authority, I find myself very much a micromanager, which is quite a hypocritical predicament in find myself in.
While I'm in the midst of letting go, I decided to let go of this blog for a little while longer - the intention is to be able to wrap up some current responsibilities, and eventually find the time to come back into this space completely refreshed, and be able to work on my own creative projects, like my podcast (it is currently under construction, if you were wondering). That ideally would not be happening until the latter half of this year, but in the meantime, I do plan to pop in here every now and then to check in on everyone.
So how have you all been? It has been a while, and I genuinely miss being able to chat with you, my dear readers, through my chatbox, through e-mail, IG DMs, and more. I love reading the different stories you have to share, your experiences, and the way you relate (or not relate) to me. I want you to be reminded that even if I am not typing out a long blogpost that only a small percentage of the world's population reads, I am still always open to your e-mails, and chatting through other forms of social media.
I love you all lots, until next time!